Well the headache came back. Today is the first day I dare to look at the computer screen long enough to catch up and to post. My husband and I have a funny depressed person/supportive person relationship. He tells me the same things over and over again (infinite patience) and after several million repetitions, I believe it or understand it as the case may be. I personally think affirmations are one of the most ridiculous forms of self help I've ever heard of. Affirmations and "Fake it 'till you Make it." What the heck does that mean really? Maybe I'm spoiled because my husband does the repetitions for me and when it finally slaps me upside the head he says "That's what I've been saying" and he's right!
Anyway, this time as I was berating myself for not doing anything he said "You don't have to do anything" Now he's said this to me over and over in the past 15 years and I've always known he meant it but I never accepted as truth for myself. This time I did. I don't know why this time was different but it was. I get things done. If it's not fast enough for someone, I have no objection to them doing it and suddenly, that includes him. I didn't feel bed when he fixed dinner or unloaded the dishwasher. On top of that I can give myself credit for what I did get done while I had this last migraine. I walked the dog, except on the weekend Derek did one day and John did the other and guess what - Max still loves me. Anyway, that's my revelation - in this last week suddenly I know that I get things done before they have to be done, or before it's too late and so when I'm not up to it, I can give myself a break. I hope it holds.